your indecisiveness is staggering.

sometimes it is real frightening.

you and your whining, you and your needs.

what about me and all my deeds?

when you need me I am there.

When I need you..you are...where?

I try to be accommodating to you,

I let you in and let you through.

Yet you apparently do not see,

the nice patient person that is me.

and so now it's time to give up on you,

you who don't put yourself in my shoe.

I will miss you from now on,

but I guess it's time to carry on.

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here's the finger to you and your mind games.

Screw 2008 / 2009.

fuck emoing over you.

The old me is back.

meh can't even emo properly with all the mugging going on.

today's the last paper :)

then... life goes on.

"

A raven tore across the vast darkness of the night skies, as though to escape from its inescapable destiny.

The "time" is approaching, like an insidious shadow, creeping with each second.

Of course, no one knew... yet.

At the last movement of the second hand,

a momentary silence swept through the unknowing city, leaving emptiness behind.

This day, this hour, this minute is where it will all begin.

The final reckoning and judgment of Man is unleashed upon us now.

Unto our unsuspecting, unguarded souls and minds."

Don't know what I am writing either. just randoming

I remember the day it all began...

and I will remember today,

for it is when all the mess that I've started will end.

It all comnes full circle, doesn't it.

I will forget you.

Since you don't want to remember me either.

am i trying to avoid you now?

i want to see you but i don't want to see you.

it's such a dilemma.

it's drifting apart.

this rift.

how how how

what to do now?

cry cry cry

nothing to do but sigh.

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what a whacked piece of crap I am.

I don't want this to screw up my results.

I don't want this to screw up my life.

I have to change.

..I said that oh so many times.

you.

whenever I see you,

I feel so impassioned, yet so helpless.

you are always out there, up there,

ignoring me, playing me,

yet I can't stop myself,

can't stop myself from falling deeper into this trap.

this pain, this sorrow.

I will mitigate it for now with work,

but I wonder how long it will take for this to fade.

maybe i am a little more happy now?

i need to come to terms with myself.

i need to face myself in the mirror.

i realized i have changed in some ways.

perhaps a little too assertive.

a little too disrespectful.

okay a little is an understatement.

but i will change.

i have to or i'll be subject to society's punishment.